at times...

i just want to pull away...sometimes..i just dont feel i fit in to the comforts of life..sometimes..i feel that my thoughts...really do not matter in a world where theres so many answeres....and i dunno...what differences can i make in a place where we have houses,cars,jobs,and yet...so much loss...sometimes i feel my life is just forfiet..and thats how i really feel...how much time has been wasted?...

and then i realize..how many others where im at feel the same...they are lost in the cracks of the forgotten...they are the ones that have been left behind....

i cannot relate to traditions..i cannot relate to family...i know nothing of comfort..my memory of what i had is just a memory...though its sustaining....i guess...we are now on our own..and if we dont know how....we spend the rest of life figuring it out....but what about the rest of it?...

i have debated to remove my posts...so many times ive wanted to just withdraw...feels like the ones i know best are the broken...the wounded...and this is not for such a people..seems that this is for those who have families,broithers and sisters...

ive been in isolation for years now...i just dont know how...so..as i get ready to go back to work...i will decide soon whther to withdraw in due time..im still thinking about it....just too many lost in the crowd